Thursday, August 18, 2011
a question I don't really want to ask but kinda do..
Okay so most of you know I have a 14 year old cocker spaniel, Sadie, who I got when I was 16. He is pretty much completely blind and deaf and has seemed to just go down hill especially in the last year or so. He just sleeps all the time. When he does move around he is constantly running into things. He doesn't seem to have a bit of excitement about him like he used to. He's slow to get up and down. He wants to go out a million times at night but doesn't have any accidents in the house during the day. I've not taken him back to the vet yet because I am thinking what's the point they can't really do much for him at his age and I don't really want to know if there is something more significant wrong. I haven't before considered this but now I kind of am and it scares me. I wondering if and when I should put him down. Ah just typing that freaks me out. I know I shouldn't just cause he's old but on the other hand he seems miserable and doesn't have much quailty of life. I, like everything else difficult in my life, try to block it out and just wait it out because either way it will work itself out. :(
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
random goings on
I've started swimming at the rec center for exercise and so far have really enjoyed it. I went 4 days last week and plan on doing the same every week. I thought it would be good for my back as it has hurt way worse this pregnancy but I can't really tell a whole lot of difference but can tell I am feeling better overall. It really has been a good work out. Working out is something I didn't do much while I was pregnant with Nash and I hoped that this time I can be in relatively good shape when having Griffin so that maybe I won't be so drained and worn out afterwards. I remember last time it taken me forever to feel like I had any strength so we'll see.
Work has been okay. This summer it was kind of laid back but very unorganized and not like the school year at all. Some ways that is good and some ways that isn't. School started this week and I am gearing up for it. I have an intern this year which is my first. I wasn't really wanting to do it this year with my pregnancy and all but think it will work out and can help me stay on top of things in the mean time. I have been the last couple of months since the pregnancy brain kicked into full gear doing a lot of stupid stuff at work. My job is one that you have to do everything, stay on top of everything, and be real organized and even under normal circumstances something falls through the crack. With being pregnant it is 100% worse. I am combating it with making extra efforts to write things down and stay on top of things. I am the butt of the jokes between my co-workers in regards to my pregnancy brain issues. Pregnancy brain does not just happen at work as in the last month I have "lost" my debit card in the ATM machine twice, lost my phone, my work phone, keys, and checkbook.
Nash is doing well. He started back to "school" this week as well. Which I was kind of happy about and kind of not. I think it will be good for him to be back in a routine and learning and interacting with his friends on a daily basis again. However, last year we had the world's best teacher and this year we have a brand new teacher. She seems real nice and Nash likes her but after having our previous experience I am a little skeptical about this one. Not that I think this year will be bad. I just don't really know what to expect. So far so good.
Nash also starts soccer soon. We signed him up for the fall under 4 league. Games start next month. I am excited about it and think it will be fun to watch him out there trying to figure it all out. I think he will love it.
There's not much new with Griffin as far as he is concerned. Still baking in the womb doing fine very active, giving me heartburn, sucking all my blood supply from my brain. However, I have been doing a lot of preparing for him. I have this weird thing about him having all the "hand me downs" which I did go through all of Nash's clothes and saved the ones that I thought he could wear and he will have plenty of hand me down toys and baby gear but I didn't want him to have the exact same nursery. The one thing I felt it was reasonable to give him something new. I couldn't find bedding I liked in the stores or at least not one that I really liked so I had a girl I know make one. It was a lot of fun and turned out cute. I am getting some pictures painted to match and got some different letters for his name to hang on the wall. A fun thing about this pregnancy is that since we are in the house already I get to do all that stuff I was kind of rushed with with Nash's pregnancy. I feel like I have been nesting from very early on with this pregnancy. I think really its just a result of my anxiety about it all and I am trying to be as prepared as I can be.
Chris is doing good. School started for him this week as well. He will be very busy this year coaching all of boys basketball and having a full teacher's load. He is being positive about it but knows he has a lot on his plate. I am hoping for a good year for him and a good season for the basketball teams. He deserves it with how much he puts into it.
So yeah, that's what's going on with us.
Work has been okay. This summer it was kind of laid back but very unorganized and not like the school year at all. Some ways that is good and some ways that isn't. School started this week and I am gearing up for it. I have an intern this year which is my first. I wasn't really wanting to do it this year with my pregnancy and all but think it will work out and can help me stay on top of things in the mean time. I have been the last couple of months since the pregnancy brain kicked into full gear doing a lot of stupid stuff at work. My job is one that you have to do everything, stay on top of everything, and be real organized and even under normal circumstances something falls through the crack. With being pregnant it is 100% worse. I am combating it with making extra efforts to write things down and stay on top of things. I am the butt of the jokes between my co-workers in regards to my pregnancy brain issues. Pregnancy brain does not just happen at work as in the last month I have "lost" my debit card in the ATM machine twice, lost my phone, my work phone, keys, and checkbook.
Nash is doing well. He started back to "school" this week as well. Which I was kind of happy about and kind of not. I think it will be good for him to be back in a routine and learning and interacting with his friends on a daily basis again. However, last year we had the world's best teacher and this year we have a brand new teacher. She seems real nice and Nash likes her but after having our previous experience I am a little skeptical about this one. Not that I think this year will be bad. I just don't really know what to expect. So far so good.
Nash also starts soccer soon. We signed him up for the fall under 4 league. Games start next month. I am excited about it and think it will be fun to watch him out there trying to figure it all out. I think he will love it.
There's not much new with Griffin as far as he is concerned. Still baking in the womb doing fine very active, giving me heartburn, sucking all my blood supply from my brain. However, I have been doing a lot of preparing for him. I have this weird thing about him having all the "hand me downs" which I did go through all of Nash's clothes and saved the ones that I thought he could wear and he will have plenty of hand me down toys and baby gear but I didn't want him to have the exact same nursery. The one thing I felt it was reasonable to give him something new. I couldn't find bedding I liked in the stores or at least not one that I really liked so I had a girl I know make one. It was a lot of fun and turned out cute. I am getting some pictures painted to match and got some different letters for his name to hang on the wall. A fun thing about this pregnancy is that since we are in the house already I get to do all that stuff I was kind of rushed with with Nash's pregnancy. I feel like I have been nesting from very early on with this pregnancy. I think really its just a result of my anxiety about it all and I am trying to be as prepared as I can be.
Chris is doing good. School started for him this week as well. He will be very busy this year coaching all of boys basketball and having a full teacher's load. He is being positive about it but knows he has a lot on his plate. I am hoping for a good year for him and a good season for the basketball teams. He deserves it with how much he puts into it.
So yeah, that's what's going on with us.
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
Lord Help Me!
Reality is starting to set in and quite honestly it is starting to freak me out. I have been trying to push it back and just not think about it. The other day I had a discussion with a friend of mine and she said "isn't your husband's busiest time of the year going to be right when you have the baby? what are you going to do?'" That is when I admitted to myself and out lout that I have been trying not to think about it. Not only is December right smack in the middle of basketball season but Chris is even going to be even busier this year (if that's possible) as he is coaching ALL the boys basketball pretty much by himself. He is a trooper and I admire that in him but it's starting to realize the magnitude of this for our family. Even though I will be happy to be no longer pregnant, I am kind of wishing the baby could just stay put for oh a couple of years!
As most of you know this pregnancy was a surprise. Nash's was planned right down to the letter. Hence him being born in the summer so that Chris would be off as well. Since this pregnancy wasn't so much planned (by us anyways) I am freaking out a little. With Nash, about a month before we started trying I got Aflac and got pregnant the next month. Aflac helped with our hospital bill and helped with some of my unpaid time off.
This time I don't really have a plan. So financially (which if you know me well) I am a little freaked out to say the least.
Also just the everyday aspects of having a 3 year old and an infant freak me out. Nash will still be going to school so that will help me have some alone time during the day with just the baby but I am not quite sure how I am going to handle the rest of the time with pretty much being by myself a lot of that time. Also, night time freaks me out. Nash isn't always and actually very seldom sleeping in his bed all night. WE HAVE GOT TO WORK ON THAT because I don't know how that is going to work with a 3 yr old in my bed and an infant sleeping in my room waking up every two hours to eat. Lord help me.
I do think that Nash is going to be a good big brother and will be helpful but let's be realistic. He's only 3 and is quite the momma's boy. I know he is going to be wanting me some too and not be crazy about all the time I will have to give to Griffin. So yeah I am freaking out a little because I am quite sure December will sneak up on me in no time and all these fears and reality will come flooding at me. Maybe I will win the lottery and be able to afford people to do things for me to make my life easier and/or I can stay at home and maybe have to time to do all that I will have to do to make life function with two kiddos.
Note to self: MUST START PLAYING THE LOTTERY. I am quite sure my sanity is going to be in jeopardy come this December and I may lose it and never get it back. For now though, back in to my mode of let's just not think about it.
As most of you know this pregnancy was a surprise. Nash's was planned right down to the letter. Hence him being born in the summer so that Chris would be off as well. Since this pregnancy wasn't so much planned (by us anyways) I am freaking out a little. With Nash, about a month before we started trying I got Aflac and got pregnant the next month. Aflac helped with our hospital bill and helped with some of my unpaid time off.
This time I don't really have a plan. So financially (which if you know me well) I am a little freaked out to say the least.
Also just the everyday aspects of having a 3 year old and an infant freak me out. Nash will still be going to school so that will help me have some alone time during the day with just the baby but I am not quite sure how I am going to handle the rest of the time with pretty much being by myself a lot of that time. Also, night time freaks me out. Nash isn't always and actually very seldom sleeping in his bed all night. WE HAVE GOT TO WORK ON THAT because I don't know how that is going to work with a 3 yr old in my bed and an infant sleeping in my room waking up every two hours to eat. Lord help me.
I do think that Nash is going to be a good big brother and will be helpful but let's be realistic. He's only 3 and is quite the momma's boy. I know he is going to be wanting me some too and not be crazy about all the time I will have to give to Griffin. So yeah I am freaking out a little because I am quite sure December will sneak up on me in no time and all these fears and reality will come flooding at me. Maybe I will win the lottery and be able to afford people to do things for me to make my life easier and/or I can stay at home and maybe have to time to do all that I will have to do to make life function with two kiddos.
Note to self: MUST START PLAYING THE LOTTERY. I am quite sure my sanity is going to be in jeopardy come this December and I may lose it and never get it back. For now though, back in to my mode of let's just not think about it.
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